rosiethebeaver

Iam the argument in the sunshine I am the cuddle in the pouring rain I am the most meaningful moment of your life I am the 10 minutes it took to throw it away I am the angel in your nightmares I am the demon in your dreams I am the reason you're still alive I am the reason you wish you were dead I am the joy of acceptance I am the joy of denial I am your best friend I am your worst enemy

I want you to be with me in the dark to hold me to keep loving me to help me when I'm scared to come right to the edge and see whats there.

It's such a strange feeling being alone, it reminds me of being in a bubble. I can see people , hear their wasted words but nothing penetrates the barriers cast around me each one a broken friendship another lie told to 'protect' me as if I'm too fragile to cope with the truth. Cold, incapable of feelings. Words I pick out from muted conversations, people unwilling to meet my eye. They see me looking, they smile, not a proper smile a smile that says 'I understand' I'm different thats the problem, I don't care about 'perfection' or messing with people's emotions It scares people that I dare to question the status quo that I